It has been a LONG time since I have even thought about this blog...much less DOING anything with it!! Before your exasperation sets in...please allow me to explain:
1. I started the blog as a catharsis during a difficult time. "Times" have gotten better but I am still not on "steady ground" by any stretch of the imagination. However, unlike others, I did not want this blog, nor the Internet world, to be my "confessor" so I managed to find other outlets that I hoped would be more productive and allow me to keep what little sanity I have left---to date it has worked out okay.
2. Blogging is HARD! I can imagine being a "good blogger" (perhaps even one who receives compensation for blogging) spends a vast majority of their time trying to stay fresh and have something meaningful to say. As a preacher I have always struggled with why anyone would want to sit through one of my sermons...I feel the same way about blogging (thank GOD the sermons are His words by the power of the Holy Spirit...and he allows me to share them). After all, I don't want to diminish the "blogosphere" thus making it lose its edge like Facebook (which started out as a unique form of media and now it is just a way to stir the drama in people's lives, rant about your political views (and those opposed to them), and post pictures of cats [which I detest])--so I didn't want to evolve into something that somehow seemed out of my control, and I was finding it difficult to find things to share that seemed meaningful...so I stopped.
3. At first, it came from an overflow, probably of fears that I was feeling, once the fears subsided other things took over. I developed some bad habits (when I should have been improving on what should have already been "good habits") during that period and when the overflow dried up--so did the reasons and the things that I wanted to share about.
My life has been nothing but hectic (and I don't mean that in the same sense that we ALL have hectic lives these days) for the past three years with worry upon worry and a truly chaotic sense of being. For the moment things have settled into more of routine (which is a GOOD thing for me) and I am hopeful that some sense of routine will root out the chaos and allow me to settle into better habits that will allow the overflow to begin flowing once again. To that end I want to try and share some things that I probably should have already been sharing...they are not new or novel or drama-laden but they are a testimony to what God has been doing and will continue to do even when I don't notice...and I suspect we all need some reminders of that. I will not make promises that I know I cannot keep..it won't be daily, maybe even not weekly (though that is what I am shooting for) but I am going to make an earnest effort to "revive" what is left.
"I believe...help my unbelief"
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