Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Prayerful Beginnings?

I HATE beginnings. The beginnings of movies usually take too long to reveal the plot.  As an introvert I would rather make a trip to the dentist than to face the beginning of something--like a new school semester, a new job, a new situation, etc... UGH!!! Even the thought of it causes a small amount of anxiety and fear of the unknown.

However, IF Heraclitus is right and everything in the universe is fluid (that is to say it lacks permanency) [he states "one never steps in the same stream twice"] then everything all the time is new (nothing is permanent) and each thing we do is somehow a beginning even though it may appear that we have done this very same thing over and over again.

I have been teaching on prayer lately (in fact, I am convinced that I teach and read about prayer because of the guilt that I have about not actually praying enough). I have found a LOT of helpful information in a number of resources...but every time I close my eyes and try to focus it seems like that awkward first time again.  My mind wonders, guilt ensues, I quickly think that prayer is descending into a diatribe at best and a soliloquy at worst!! As J.I. Packer puts it..."it has become a duty and not a delight" (see the work here: Packer, J.I. and Nystrom, Carolyn "Praying: Finding our Way Through Duty to Delight).

I never seem to get beyond the fumbling to the "good part."  Theologically I am there.  I believe, know and understand that God loves me, wants what's best for me, and wants me to communicate with Him.  I just sense silence and not communication. I still pray, badly, but I seem to spend a LOT more time lately NOT asking things--perhaps I lack the faith to ask because of the silence I have experienced.  If I were a deterministic Calvinist I would simply chalk it up to God's determinism and let it go...but I am not.  Like Rich Mullins, I keep thinking that He is playing "Hard to Get."

But then I happened upon this Thomas Merton quote:

We do not want to be beginners [at prayer]. But let us be convinced of the fact 
that we will NEVER be anything but beginners, all our life!

Interesting...as much as I HATE beginnings I wonder if it is worth starting over with a new perspective?  Paul sheds light on a similar problem in Romans chapters 9-11 where he finally figures out that the majority of the human problem is a problem in perspective...we cannot see what God sees, nor can we know what God knows-- "His ways are not our way." Instead of praying my perspective I should seek a new perspective from the One who sees all!!

Each beginning will always be difficult...but I like that I never face it alone.

I believe help my unbelief.

Friday, August 9, 2013

5 Miles of Bad Road in the Middle of the Wilderness (Or Why I've Kept Going)

I just got a call (a digitally recorded call...I might add) at my church office about...are you ready...aerial photography.  You know...those fly over shots you see of businesses and farms and other cool stuff.

Don't be confused...I am NOT against aerial photography (sometimes I think the pics are pretty cool)--but I just don't see our leadership going for it and I have no idea where we would hang such a thing or why.  But last night and that phone call reminded me of a few things.

After the call I sat and wondered what my life might look like from an aerial view?  Sometimes people plot their journey like a line graph...showing the peaks and valleys and the ups and downs...but I wonder how my life might look from an overhead perspective? I can only imagine!!  I don't want to see a line graph...it would only depress me!! But an overhead perspective where you get the BIG picture...might look a LOT different.

I have a feeling that it might look like some broken up road in the middle of nowhere...probably like SO many "cow paths" that I walked to fish in a farm pond...weeds growing up both sides, there's only dirt where the cows walk, and where the tractor passes by...then there is the stuff that the cows leave behind...that seems to be everywhere...including the bottom of your boots!  Yeah it has been a tough last few years.  A piece of road I NEVER thought I would hit when I was in my 20's and 30's--back then was a struggle too..but for different reasons and in different ways...as I approach 50 the struggles have changed, my perception of them has changed, and how I deal with them has changed as well.

About 6 years ago I moved to my present location to be an associate minister (in retrospect I'll confess...with a LOT of expectations), in a congregation that everyone thought would soon be pushing 200 and beyond.  After only a few months there the senior minister announced that he was leaving--I applied but was not given the position---though disgruntled I stayed and tried to move forward in the position that I was in.  Another senior minster was hired, after two years he announced that he was leaving...I was told I would not be considered for the position (BTW...by that time I had been in the ministry for 20 years with 10 years experience in the pulpit)...so I quit.  That's right...that night...on the spot I quit...not knowing how I would support my family or what would happen...it was basically like a "secular" job...I gave my two weeks notice and that was the end of it.
I considered leaving the ministry completely but to be honest...at my age...in our location...there's not much out there.

After a couple of months of supply preaching I was asked to become the interim of a small congregation about an hour from home. I agreed for the short-term.  The congregation had been through some problems, attendance had diminished, and they were (and still are) in financial trouble due to the split. I began to drive over three days a week--for almost no financial support--things got a little better.  As I prayed, (and frankly...feared) God laid on my heart to pursue this ministry as a missionary...perhaps I could get financial backing from others to support our efforts there...I did, He did, and we did. That was nearly three years ago and I am still the interim minster there...but we have set a a timeline for change...only God knows what this year will bring (changes...definitely changes!!).

That's my story...as Paul Harvey was wont to say...here's the "rest of the story." 

At my last position I had the great pleasure to meet up with a missionary from Haiti.  In fact, I got to travel to Haiti for a week of short term labor for the Kingdom.  In the waning months of my tenure at the church he contacted me about working with him to start an institute to teach Haitian nationals how to be ministers...I think he called it "A Haitian Bible College"--I am not at all sure why he contacted me except that he knew I had an advanced degree and some experience teaching college students.

LONG story short--the dream became a reality and this Fall I will begin my third year teaching Haitian students at the institute via online technology.

Last night that same missionary came to my house for a visit.  He told me, with GREAT joy, how the institute, though still small in size was making a HUGE impact in its area in Haiti.  My students are working in private schools, helping at the church (doing youth work), are being ordained as deacons in their local churches, there is even a new vision of a church plant that will use the students from the institute to help plant the congregation in a rural place where no church exists (property has even been donated for this purpose)--there is a dream of a medical clinic near the church that will serve the area--reaching both physical and spiritual needs. 

DON'T MISUNDERSTAND...I didn't do or cause ANY of these things to happen...for the Haitians I am mostly a face on a video screen that talks too much. However, in the "mess" that is my current life situation I was reminded that I need to step back and see what God is doing in the middle of my mess.

I have thought about, wanted to, prayed about, cried out to God, written out...you name it...I HAVE WANTED OUT...the ministry is hard on people and families and we (unfortunately like SO many others) have bore the brunt of the negative side of what it means to serve in God's Kingdom.

An aerial view might look better than I think...to me it would probably look like 5 miles of bad road in the middle of the wilderness...but from a BIGGER perspective...you know how those aerial pictures are---they are so far away that all the small stuff that seems out of place when you see them from the ground...go unnoticed from the air...everything that in everyday life seems to occupy and clutter seems insignificant from a bigger perspective.

I tend to only see the glass 1/2 empty with WAY too much stuff cluttering up the landscape.  God's see it too (I am certain) but today I was reminded why God sees the BIG picture...and that is why I keep going...because I trust someone sees something better in the distance than I am able to see. So let us "not grow weary in doing good"--but keep our eyes on the "Author and Perfecter of our faith"--what might look like 5 miles of bad road in the middle of the wilderness might look like something else to Him!

I believe...help me in my unbelief.

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Book Outline: Misreading Scripture with Western Eyes



I wanted to share a sentence outline of a book from last year that I shared with an introductory level class.  This is NOT so much a review of the work per se as it is a survey of the content to help you know whether or not you might want to pick it up for yourself.
 
Written Outline of: Misreading Scripture with Western Eyes: Removing Cultural Blinders to Better Understand the Bible. By E. Randolph Richards & Brandon J. O’Brien. InterVarsity Press, ©2012.

Written by two authors, who have spent an appreciable amount of time as missionaries outside of the western cultural context, this volume attempts to point out what they call “blinders” (presuppositions, assumptions or bias) that those reared in the Western cultural context hold that may skew or prevent the Western mind from interpreting or understanding Scripture correctly.







Using the metaphor of an iceberg they split the book into three distinct parts: (1) what is “above the surface”; (2) what is “just below the surface”; (3) what is “deep below the surface.”

Outline:

1)    Western bias and suppositions that the authors claim are “above the surface.”

a)    Mores in the East and West, how they affect the biblical text and how our understanding of them affects our interpretation of the biblical text. 
i)       Are we aware of our cultural bias when we come to the biblical text?
ii)     Can we stop cultural bias from affecting how we read Scripture?
iii)    Diversity in a pluralistic society—is it helpful for understanding the Bible?

b)    Ethnocentrism through Western eyes and the inherit problems with race, ethnicity, and gender in the biblical narratives. 
i)       Will a postmodern, egalitarian, interpretive scheme get us closer to the truth?
ii)     Were these issues as important back then as they are today?
iii)    Do these issues prevent us from seeing what scripture is REALLY saying?

c)     Thinking about linguistics, language, and the need for clarity when reading Scripture.
i)       Is the West falling short by failing to REALLY comprehend the semantics of biblical languages?
ii)     If we know the biblical languages are we still affected by Western bias in our translations?
iii)    Because English is vastly different from European (much less Ancient Near Eastern) languages—have we misinterpreted the bible? 
iv)   Has our language bias forced passages to say things that they were never really meant to say?
v)     Because the West typically holds to a “correspondence” view of language and reality can we REALLY talk about biblical reality based on non-biblical (Western) interpretations?
vi)   Is this work merely a postmodern “language game” intended to redact or revise scripture based on a specific cultural ethos?

2)    Western bias and suppositions that the authors claim are “just below the surface.”

a)    Community: Western social individualism and the concept of collectivity.
i)       Sociological perspectives on the bible and how interpretations vary based on cultures.
ii)     Has the “radical individualism” of the West caused us to miss important truths in Scripture?
(1)  Does Western individualism taint the narrative model of Scripture?
(2)  What underlying sociological assumptions drive our individualism?
(3)  Is it possible to overcome this particular bias?
iii)    The Church as a sociological union—the concept of community is more than a collection of individuals.
iv)   Is there too much “me” in my interpretations?
v)     Can the West ever grasp the depth of collective intimacy that the bible presupposes?

b)    How does the “Honor/Shame” concept affect the Eastern and Nomadic cultures presupposed in the biblical narratives?
i)       Does the “honor/shame” concept influence Western notions of morality and ethics?
ii)     Individual responsibility to the concepts of right and wrong and the collective societies’ notion of shame and honor color the biblical texts: How? Why? Can the West grasp this concept which appears beyond the grasp of their rugged individual ethic?
iii)    How does language and semantics affect the Western understanding of the concepts of shame and honor?
iv)   In light of the shame/honor information how should our interpretations change?
(1)  Does the shame/honor model call for a reinvention of the Western conception of morality?
(2)  How do we in the West live now IF this model should change our presuppositions?

c)     The concept of time in the East and West and how it influences biblical interpretations.
i)       Time as a linear measurement of past, present, and future: a Western idiom?
ii)     Has sociological individualism made us a slave to our clocks and calendars?
iii)    How has our assumptions about time (past, present, and future) affected our understanding of various biblical passages?
iv)   Two biblical terms for time: kiaros and chromos—what they mean and why they are important?
(1)  Which “kind” of time are we living for kiaros or chronos?
(2)  Is the bible more about chronos or kiaros—why does it matter?

3)    Western bias and suppositions that the authors claim are “deep below the surface.”

a)    What is more important in life and interpretation: rules or relationships?
i)       How science and the Enlightenment shifted our focus away from relationships to objective truths that are scientifically verifiable.
ii)     How and why are relationships more important than rules?
iii)    Do rules undermine relationships?
iv)   Is this based on the community vs. individual society?
v)     Are both relationships and rules of value to a society?
vi)   Can we actually live without either of these as a society?
vii)  How does our understanding of these concepts change our perceptions about biblical interpretation?
(1)  The OT as a rule driven but relationship valued example.
(2)  The NT as a relationship driven but rule valued example.

b)    The concepts of virtue and vice in life and scripture.
i)       Which should we pursue?
ii)     How does our pursuit of these in our life presuppose how we come to the biblical text?
iii)    Making interpretive assumptions and priorities based on both virtue and vice on our lives.

c)     Finding the center: seeking God in the midst of a world that promotes Self.
i)       Understanding why Self is not all it has cracked up to be.
ii)     Why the Self influences our biblical reading.
iii)    Finding ourselves amidst the social construction of reality.
iv)   God and the Self—is there any hope?
(1)  How the Self completely changes the way we come to SOME texts in scripture.
(2)  The Bible, oddly enough, is NOT about me and me alone as an individual!
(3)  Understanding how we got where we are in light of biblical interpretation and the Self.
(4)  How might our views change if we REALLY understood that not every text will speak to me directly?

4)    Conclusion:  three steps for removing cultural blinders.

a)    A disappointment: it is NEVER as easy as three steps!
i)       Embrace the complexity of scripture, culture, and self.
ii)     Beware of overcorrecting in light of this complexity—not everything needs to change.
iii)    Be teachable—it is never too late for “old dogs to learn new tricks.”
iv)   Embrace error—don’t see being wrong as failure—sometimes we learn best when we learn by trial and error.
v)     Read together—a way to overcome Western individualism is to understand the community context and practice it—two (or three or four) heads are better than one!

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

A Disposable Generation?

A Quick History Lesson

When cultural change first shook the "builder" generation their kids were pretty young. Korea was over and Vietnam was on the horizon, few parents could have seen the impact of the 1960's that loomed over their youngsters.  But as the kids grew, a seismic rift was tearing away at the cultural underbelly and soon all those lovely children were, "tuning in, turning on, and dropping out!"  The hippie rebellion was on and their target was anything that smacked of authority, institution, and establishment.  Many parents reacted in a variety of ways and while there was general upheaval (and abandonment on both sides) the Church didn't seem to notice too much and instead chose to focus inwardly (or more rightly stated...stuck their head in the sand).

Although it seemed an eternity to those builder parents who remained faithful the hippies changed into "yuppies" and eventually returned to a "dressed up" version of "Contemporary or Seeker Church" (if you want to call putting lipstick on a pig dressed up)--driven by a shift in worship music and consumerism but keeping all the same traditional structures in place.  After all, even hippies/yuppies who rebelled wanted their own children to grow up in Church...and so they did...they not only grew up in Church but the Church basically raised them---there were so many programs that the "Gen Xers" or "Busters" were inundated with either the busy life of Church every day (Church basketball, your rally, Church soccer league, Church camp, etc...) which soon became stale and tiresome OR they were left to their own devices and quickly discovered the raw reality of the "grunge"/"slacker" world...as Kurt Cobain coined, "I feel useless and contagious, here we are now, entertain us!"  The lipstick on the pig was quickly wearing off.  Soon those restless, raw, bored kids became adults, and their parents assumed that they would eventually "wander back into the fold" in the same way that they had.  But they didn't.

They didn't because the changes that took place in the Church did not reflect the cultural tsunami of the first generation that was spoon-fed postmodernism.  A healthy dose of postmodernity at breakfast each morning had completely desensitized those of us who found ourselves on the fringe who fit the "Gen X" profile...and now it is too late...the Church has lost the Gen X generation---they are adults with kids of their own who are more secular than previous generations, who have seen what "religion" has done to their families (even the good ones), and they have been negatively impacted by "church" so they won't be darkening the doors anytime soon. Those of us who have "stuck it out" are desperate for change...not for our sake (it is too late for us)...but for OUR children.

Technology will continue to drive cultural change...it refuses to abate...what should the Church do? What can the Church do?  What would God have us do?  There may be only one thing too big for God to handle...ourselves.

MOVING ON...

Statistics say that the "Millennials" are the largest generation yet (even outdoing the now retiring baby boomers) and while some advances have been made to address the underlying paradigm shift in our world--they are coming too slowly, and some are headed in the WRONG direction.

How many more generations are disposable?  How many families must suffer the loss of faith and spirituality because we keep doing it wrong!?!?  How long can we hide from a culture that is setting the standard when Jesus says BELIEVERS ought to be setting the standard...by being servants...and servants NEVER get what they want (or have it their way) because to be a servant is to give up control.

I struggle to pray these days...but sometimes I can't help myself...I don't have any other avenues so I can do no other.  But when I do...I try to look beyond myself, the hurt of being disposable, the struggle for my own significance (as if anyone will remember), and I pray for God's people to FINALLY start to act like God's people...and IF that happens...I pray the world will notice.

I believe...help me in my unbelief.

Friday, May 31, 2013

Only Bottom Feeders Eat Stink Bait!




Last night, for the first time this year, I went night fishing (yea I know it might be a little early in the year and the water is probably not quite warm enough—but the weather had been SO nice in the evening)—that’s right I broke out the lanterns, the bag chairs, and the “dip bait” and headed for the lake.

To make a long story short we sat there for three hours being swarmed by every type of insect alive without even a nibble so we gave in and went home early.

BUT…the beauty of this type of fishing (when you are not catching anything) is that it gives you a lot of time to think, and talk.

I could be wrong but I think a catfish will eat just about anything (even raw hot dogs!), and it seems to me that the worse it smells, and the more disgusting the consistency the more they like it (that is when they are biting)!

Which brings me to today…after several washings with a variety of soaps and cleansers, and a full body shower…my hands STILL smell like “stink” bait (which is REALLY bad for someone who has a small office and typically deals with people!)

We have been talking a little at church lately about prayer and one of the things that I suggested is that too often “prayer” trees and prayer requests turn into “gossip, loose talk, and slander!” So as I am thinking about the next  lesson on prayer I am also smelling now nearly day old “stink bait” covered by any number of unnatural scents intended to clean it or mask it and I am realizing a profound spiritual truth (perhaps for the first time)—only bottom feeding fish eat stink bait.

Stay with me because I think I am on to something…fish that are often called “bottom feeders” (catfish, carp, drum, etc…) are typically scavengers and will eat nearly anything…so the best way to catch them is with “stink bait”—they are attracted by the scent thinking that they are getting a free meal…when instead, at least in theory, the fisherman gets the meal.

For whatever reason…some people are attracted to “stink bait.”  The worse it smells the more they seem to like it.  Eagles drummer Don Henley captured this truth in a bouncy little ditty back in the eighties called “Dirty Laundry”—suggesting that media were “bottom feeders” in their approach to reporting “news.”  The sad truth is…that God’s Church is really not immune to this either.  As Christians forced to live in this world it is too easy to get sucked into living OF, and OFF the world and becoming bottom feeders---ingesting all the stink bait that Satan and the world would have us consume about everyone and everybody.

But that is not the way that it should be:

  • Nevertheless, each person should live as a believer in whatever situation the Lord has assigned to them, just as God has called them. This is the rule I lay down in all the churches (1 Cor 7:17)
  • This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but people loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil (John 3:19)
  • Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world (James 1:27).
  • Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen (Eph 4:29)
  • Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you (Phil. 4:8-9)
And that is just a SAMPLE of the teachings concerning how followers of Jesus are not to be “bottom feeders!!”

I wish that it were that easy—read the scriptures and do what they say…but for some reason it never seems to be…so here are some other suggestions:

  • Focus your mind on the important things
  • PRAY for yourself and others.
  • Refuse to listen
  • Change the channel
  • GENTLY encourage those “feeding on stink bait” to either change their conversations or to seek another conversant.
  • Etc…(there are hundreds that you could think of!)
Here is something else to consider…I don’t know what it is that is in “stink bait” that makes the horrible smell stick to the flesh---but it does…it seems as if it cannot be washed off---once it is on there it has to wear off…that is EXACTLY what Satan wants!!  The stink bait used to attract or concern bottom feeders stays with you—it doesn’t wash off (or if you REALLY want to go “old skool” you might think in these terms—it can only be “washed off by the blood of the Lamb”—I really am getting too old!).  Once you fall for stink bait and bottom feeding it is a hard habit to break and that smell sticks to you (it becomes a trust issue for others—and once you lose that it is VERY hard to regain!)

Isn’t it time?  Isn’t it time that the Church starting acting like the church and quit adding to the noise that makes it difficult to hear Jesus? Bottom feeders will consume almost anything---and the worse it smells and the more disgusting it is…the better they like it!  Remember, only bottom feeders like stink bait!!
The BEST way to eat a "bottom feeder!"